It's Saturday!

Hi, Blogger! :)


today is Saturday! 
yaaay \ ^o^ / for everyone! we finish the work for this week, but not for me OTL...
not an office hour work and wouldn't think on weekends would be have a day off to spend it with family or going out with friends...TT^TT


even my friend told me, that so difficult to meet with me personally, out of J-FEST. u___u"
I'm so sorry! really! wasn't my purpose to be like that, but it was work to force me to be like that!
however, you could meet me in net world? :D


And today was my DAY OFF! >A<//
but, i don't have any plans. Cause, tomorrow have to work at 4am...OTL.
can't go to Jakarta or even going to my friend's house. TAT how pathetic...


need to find other jobs!
I want a freedom!!  \ ( > o < ) / #shoot

I'm alive

Dear God,


nothing is good happen today. i'm being alone and alone.
i do have people around me who i called friends, but did they called my as their friend also?


i do near them, but seem they did not see me in person.
they see me differently.
they could talk with each other, but not with me.


am i worth as one of their friends?
if i was not worthy, they could just ignored and block me.
and what i could do, is knowing the truth and noted.


Dear God,
I would pray for their happiness and my own happiness.




i'm alive,
i'm breathing,
i could talk,
i could singing,
i could laughing,
and...i could crying, cause i'm alive.

05th september, 2011

Dear God,

Today is 06th of September, but i want to tell you what i felt when it was 05th of September. :')
work goes smoothly and everything is fine in my eyes. it was all because of your guidance and blessed.
Thanks for the great day of 05th september.
But, I would still needed you guidance and mercy. While I'm still alive and walk in your path. :)

[BL MANGA REVIEW] Only the Ring Finger Knows

IT'S THE ULTIMATE EXPRESSION OF LOVE - to wear the same rings with your significant person, and show the world you are loving each other.
in Wataru's school, when one wears matched rings on their right middle finger it's a sign of friendship, the ring on the right ring finger means single, and to wear matching rings on the left ring finger means a couple.


Wataru also wears one, thou he's a single, when one day he switches his rings with the handsome and popular senpai in his school, Kazuki Yuichi, and they find that their rings match! :')
since that incident, Kazuki, who's known being kind to other become harsh to Wataru. It's become a big questinon for Wataru, why Kazuki become like that when it comes to Wataru. And since that Wataru's minds being filled with Kazuki.

Aren't Kazuki and Wataru is an enemy,  seems uncharacteristically Kazuki can't stand him? or they are a soul mate? 


The romance in the stories was so sweet!!
I couldn't stand when Kazuki become irritated when he knows Wataru wears the same ring with him!
and the most unexpected is, the stories behind why Kazuki have the same rings with Wataru!! x///Da


RECOMMENDED FOR THE LIGHT SHOUNEN-AI STORIES!




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Only The Ring Finger Knows (Sono Yubi Dake ga Shitteiru)
written by Kannagi satoru
illustrated by Odagiri Hotaru
genre       : shounen-ai. romance, shcool life
publisher  : Digital Manga Publisher (Novel) Tokuma Shouten (Manga)

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Dear Blogger,

today...and for all entire weeks, i'm so tired. Mentally and body.
got a headache, and couldn't touch my meals.
my brain so much thinking, and my body work so hard.
it would be related each others.

am i in such depress situation?

#Scorpios often have a strong fear of betrayal.

Dear God,

today is Thursday, and i'm still so sad. it wasn't about work this time. it was about my friend, my beloved friend.

i lose her. I (perhaps) lose her for sure. :"(

i just needed time to re created my feeling, before i could accepted everything. so that, everything would become normal like before. but seems, she tired for waiting? do you?

what become my most unexpected facts is, that you really believed in what your friend said to you. I-really-don't know what your friend telling about me.

yeah, i'm a strong willed person yet a stubborn and also a BIG IDIOT. i admit all those!

you know it and yet you still leaved me...and i'm so disappointed. 

why you...for all those people,would choose that.

Dear God,

if she thought that her friend is more precious and worth than me.

if she thought that her friend's words is more convenience for her.

if she thought that with her friends, she would be happy and no sorrow...

please, just give me some more strength to go through of this. and leaved her.

she my beloved friend yet like a family for me...

i wishing for her happiness.

i wishing for her future.

please keep her healthy and please bless her always, in every decisions she would made.

so, she would be walk in the right path of happiness.

and now...she's missing.